Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, “Why couldn’t we drive it out?”  He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move.  Nothing will be impossible for you.”  — Matthew 17:19-20

I am in a tough season right now.  I almost hate admitting that and posting this for others to see.  This is more like a journal entry than a WMD.  I am hyperaware that others have it much, much rougher than me.   We are not promised a smooth ride, and I’m not even asking for that.  I just want to learn to rise above it all.  I want to get up there with God where even Mount Everest looks like an anthill.

I have been playing Elevation’s “Do it again” pretty much on repeat since Sunday.  That song just lit up my spirit:

I’ve seen you move

You move the mountains

And I believe, I’ll see you do it again

You made a way

Where there was no way

And I believe, I’ll see you do it again

You see, I know He will move them.  I know better times are coming.  I know with absolute certainty this season will end.  My prayer is not that it will even come to an end.  My prayer is that while in the middle of it, I will have joy unspeakable.  I want my attitude to stay solid.  I want to not just want to sleep all the time.  I want to feel victorious and trust God like never before.

I feel like tough moments in our lives are tests.  Tests that most of us just want over and done with.  The real mountain to me right now is finding joy in the test.  I know they say the teacher is silent during the test, but it isn’t like we don’t know He is there watching and supervising us.  Nothing is going to happen that He does not allow.

Lord, make me a faithful servant.  I never want to focus so much on my circumstances, which I do all the time. I just want to focus on you.  Fill me up with your Holy Spirit once more. Revive me that I might thrive, not just survive.  Thank you for being the mountain mover.  Thank you that when you are ready, the mountain will move.  However, right now, while I’m on it, draw me as close to you as I’ve ever been before.  I love you, Lord.