Up Until Now (Part 2)
By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as an inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. – Hebrews 11:8
This is always the strangest thing to me how I just publicly put my life on display for anyone in the world who cares to read. Who does that?
Anyway, I have hit quite a rough patch. Two weeks ago, I lost one of my best friends. Karen Brown was such a prayer warrior and prayer covering for me. Eight days ago, I was released from my job as the pastor of Lifeline Community Church. Five years and ten months ago I preached my first sermon there. It is crazy how much I got to watch this little church grow. It is even crazier how much I grew in the Lord. There is no doubt the Lord used this season to put many, many new tools in my toolbox for future endeavors. I was (and probably still am) immature and naïve in so many ways. I’m not 100% sure I want to completely do away with these qualities. I do believe they allow me to go to God in a very childlike way. I’m okay with that if He is.
So, what is next? Good question! If there is one thing that I know about God, He just doesn’t reveal this kind of information. He did tell Jonah to go to Nineveh, but that’s only because he knew Jonah didn’t want to go in the first place. In the overwhelming majority of cases, He says, “Go,” you say, “Where?” and He says, “I’ll show you when you get there.” Not exactly the preference for us entitled Americans who think they should be privy to any and all information.
So, as of today, I have no idea where I’m going. But, I’m going to obey and go in His Name. My plan is to simply seek Him diligently. I don’t want to miss a single day with Him. He is the source and strength of my life. I love Him so much and I just can’t believe how much He loves me. The Bible says if we come to Him, we must come to Him like He really does exist, and we must believe that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6)
Lord, it feels like going back to the beginning of it all. I’m even drawn to the tattered old first Bible that I was given. I had no idea all that you had in store for me even up until this point of my life. You have done amazing things in my life. As I head into the wilderness, I just pray that you will accomplish in me all that needs to be accomplished. I pray that I won’t rush through it. I also certainly pray that I don’t spend more time there than necessary. I love you, Lord. I trust you. You know the end from the beginning and you’ve already ordered my steps. Fill me up with your Holy Spirit that every step might be a joy.