And after He dismissed the crowds, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray. – Matthew 14:23
I remember the first time I got to play guitar with a worship team. I felt like God had given me something really, really special. You see, I thought when I was a teenager that I wanted to play guitar in a rock band. I got to do it for a while on a super small scale. However, when I got saved, I knew for sure that it wasn’t in the cards for me. I gave that dream up. So, when I got to play in front of a crowd at church, I was exhilarated. I felt like God had given it back to me and then some. He made something that I thought I wanted to do even better.
I got to do that for a few years. I loved it. Once again though, the time came where I knew I had to give it up. It hurt kind of badly. I really felt like that was a dream God was going to make last. Up to that point, I only practiced the songs we would be doing on Sundays during the week. I would then practice with the band on Thursday nights, and then play the songs on Sunday. After that was all over, there was this amazing moment. I took my guitar and went outside. I told God that I wanted to play Him a song . . . not because I was to play it in front of a crowd this Sunday, but because I loved Him. I can’t even begin to tell you the power in it. What a difference!
Right now, I have an opportunity to meet with a friend. We have been meeting up to pray regularly. In fact, it is a time and place that has to do with our jobs. We have often said, “I can’t believe God is paying us to do this!”
This week is Spring Break. I asked him if he would meet and pray anyway . . . not because we are getting paid, but because we love Him. He said yes. I am looking so forward to giving this offering to God.
I only say this stuff because I wish I had understood this concept earlier in my life. I have been so selfish over the course of my life and have so often only sought glory for myself. I have learned that I could not be more like Satan than when I am behaving in such a way. This week, find some time to dismiss the crowds, go somewhere by yourself, and pray. You just might discover a raw power that you didn’t even know existed.
Lord, help me to decrease as You increase. I don’t want to even imagine all the times that I maybe did something in Your Name, but it was all really for myself. I just want to say that I am sorry. With all my heart, mind, and strength, I want to learn to love You. Help me to do just that. I want to be pure and spotless on that glorious day that I meet You in glory. I know I can’t do it on my own because I know what I’m like. But with You, Lord . . . You give me just enough of these holy moments to let me know that You are working on me and that I’m right on schedule. I can’t thank You enough! Thank You for giving Your life for me and making this all possible. Thank You for this week where we all think about You just a little more intensely. There is and never will be another like You. I love You! Amen.