Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.  – Proverbs 18:21

For a couple of months now, I have just been down.  Right around December, I was in the best shape of my life, I had finally put completely to rest some offense from my past, and everything was just going well for the most part.  Then, I got the virus which shall not be named.  The actual sickness lasted for about 3 days, but then came the tiredness.  I tried to start working out again to just to find myself sleeping for hours afterwards.  It began to sink my spirit.  I got into this habit of complaining and even telling myself, “I need to go back to bed,” or “I just can’t do this” even though I had slept plenty.  I would end up dragging through my day with low energy and lots of whine.  

Recently, I picked up this religious book from the 80’s in a really weird place.  I read the first page and found these words, “Let the weak say I am strong.”  Immediately, the Lord spoke to my spirit, and I thought of how weak I’ve been and just accepting it.  Well, I took that moment to tell myself, “No more complaining about being sick . . . body, you are strong, you are well rested, and you have all you need by the spirit of God!  It all turns around starting right now!”   I had no idea where that verse was in the Bible, so I looked it up . . . Joel 3:10.  When I studied it in context, it had nothing to do with how I had just used it, but thank goodness it still worked.  

I looked for other similar verses . . . I liked Proverbs 18:21.  I have the power to speak death and life into my situation.  I can’t tell you what a difference it has made in just a few days.  Instead of waking up saying, “I wish I could sleep some more” and dragging myself around, I say, “I am well rested . . . I have all I need to conquer the day.”  Either I have the spirit of the living God living inside of me or I do not.  I have no idea why I forget to access Him.  I’m not where I want to be, but praise God, I’m finally heading back in the right direction.

Lord, I want to be more than a conqueror.  I’m not foolish enough to think I can just say whatever I want and go do it.  I need You constantly filling me with Your Spirit, Your mercy, and Your grace.  I need You leading me.  I can walk one step at a time.  I can live moment by moment and breath by breath.  When I live like this, things are so wonderful . . . it is like I’m walking with You . . . not crawling so I don’t get anywhere, and not running so that I tire easily.  You are and always will be the best thing this planet offers.  Let me not forget . . . even for a moment.  Amen